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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

In Conclusion. . .

I realize that if one were to read through my previous blog posts, they would encounter two or three posts talking about some sort of "life-changing" decision. Here's another one.
These last few weeks, I have been tossing around the idea of going back on a mission. It's still hard for me to shake the thought of "where would I be right now?" and "where SHOULD I be right now?".
Well, I made up my mind. I decided I am going to try to go back. If I tried, I would know whether or not it was meant to be.
Unfortunately, not long after having made that decision, the exact opposite occurred. My body gave me a gentle reminder that I am not quite at full capacity.
So, I am here to stay.
I know what you are thinking. Deciding to stay in one place is no life-changing decision. You're right. The part about my life changing is more about the way I view my situation. I have made every effort to return, but it's just not meant to be.
The next step? Find a good reason to be here. This one shouldn't be hard.

4 comments:

Marye said...

sometimes the hardest decision to make is to realize your life is just as it should be! I've had a lot of the same stuggles, with different decisions obviously, but all the same, i'm glad you've found some answers!

Landon and Kylie said...

Kyle, we're proud of you for trying. I think you're here to keep Landon sane. :) Come over again soon!

Roger and Laurene said...

Dear Kyle,
I'm so sad we didn't get to see you this weekend. I hear you are a good friend and great company. But then... we knew that all along, didn't we? :)
Love,
Aunt Laurene
p.s. I think you should apply to BYU-I.

Becky Green said...

I like having you here Kyle. Even though I don't see you that often, whenever I do, you seriously make my day brighter. I would have been happy for you if you were able to return to the field, but I can see why God would want you to stick around. If you can effect more people the way you effect me, it's worth it.